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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 01:04

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I will be 64.

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We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

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My mum and dad in the seventies!

Especially a lifetime of it.

Who then, do I blame.?

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What did i know ?

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

And i lived it daily.

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But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

So, i spoilt her more .

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A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

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The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

But it wasn’t much.

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Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

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We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

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I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

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19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I waited trembling.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Why is it so hard to date nowadays?

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

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The only rule us 5 kids had .

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

He knew the spot.

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I know ,a lot about trauma.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

One cannot live in the past .

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Im still living with it.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

She loved him until the end.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

He was dying to do it , i knew.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I was very sick at this time too.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I write beautiful poetry .

So whats the point in blame.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

My life is so biszare .

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I don,t even have a pension.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I have no regrets .

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I never cut or harmed myself..

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

But, we were locked up after school.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

He resisted the act ,that day.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I was seconnd youngest,

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

It was going to be , some day.

She was in good health!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

This is soul school!.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

They are buried together, in the same grave..

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Was to survive, this bastard.

I couldn’t, believe it.

Ive learnt so much.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

We all went to grammer schools

I was scared of men, in general

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

She married twice! .

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Put me off passion for life!!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

As i do to all so called friends.?

We were not on the streets..

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I think the readers, may guess!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

But ive been too sick for many years..

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

My family never makes their pension either.

I was 9 years of age.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

She found it foreign!.

Comes on , in middle age.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

(And it was in our own minds.)

I had hoped to write a book about this .

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Would this be the day?

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I said to her

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

She wouldn,t have been !

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

All the time i was locked up.

When she asked me how she looked .

Why did i forgive my father ?

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?