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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

14.06.2025 02:00

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

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And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

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Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

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His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

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She was in good health!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I was seconnd youngest,

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She died at 55 of colon cancer.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Can we trust the Bible when Constantine and the First Council of Nicaea took out many books of the Bible and altered existing translation by removing things?

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

What is unattractive about a nice guy? Why do some women don’t choose nice guys?

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Do people really have sex with animals?

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

We were not on the streets..

We all went to grammer schools

Do opposites attract? How often do you see weird couples like a guy/girl dating someone who is boring with no sense of humor ?

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

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Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

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Comes on , in middle age.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

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Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I couldn’t, believe it.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

My family never makes their pension either.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

So whats the point in blame.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I waited trembling.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I write beautiful poetry .

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Ive learnt so much.

But, we were locked up after school.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I don,t even have a pension.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

So, i spoilt her more .

I said to her

She wouldn,t have been !

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

All the time i was locked up.

One cannot live in the past .

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Would this be the day?

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I have no regrets .

And i lived it daily.

It was going to be , some day.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

When she asked me how she looked .

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Put me off passion for life!!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

My life is so biszare .

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

This is soul school!.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

She found it foreign!.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Im still living with it.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

But it wasn’t much.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I was 9 years of age.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I never cut or harmed myself..

He was dying to do it , i knew.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

She married twice! .

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I was scared of men, in general

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Especially a lifetime of it.

He resisted the act ,that day.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I will be 64.

Why did i forgive my father ?

Where the ultimate outsiders.

As i do to all so called friends.?

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

What did i know ?

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I could never make a relationship work though!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

She loved him until the end.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

He knew the spot.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

(And it was in our own minds.)

Was to survive, this bastard.

I think the readers, may guess!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Who then, do I blame.?

The only rule us 5 kids had .

But ive been too sick for many years..

I was very sick at this time too.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.